Tears and Fears

I need a good cry. It seems, however, that whenever I have time to cry, I'm not emotional. When I'm emotional, it's not a safe time to let go. Nothing is really wrong except for everything. Everything and everyone are broken. Broken cisterns. Cracked all the way-top to bottom. Cancer sucks. Infertility sucks. Selfishness sucks. Fear sucks. All of it. Absolutely stinks. Oh how I long for the new heavens and new earth. Come, Lord Jesus!