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Sunday, February 20, 2011


This weekend the Browns came and took our kids away for 3 nights.  Jim had hotel points, so they booked a suite about 5 minutes from here.  It was dreamy.  The weather was gorgeous--we kept the windows open most of the weekend.  Brian hung around helping me work as much as he didn't, and we were also able to get some good quality non-work time in together.

One of the favorite things we did was go for a walk Friday morning.  We needed to return the movies to the library before it opened, so when I got back from camp we decided to head out together.  It was cool but not cold--perfect for a brisk walk--and the library is about a mile away.  About 2 min. into the walk, I looked over at my handsome husband (he'd just gotten a haircut and his beard trimmed), and told him I was so glad I really liked him so much.  That I'm excited about the idea of living the rest of life with him, especially that it will be just us again some day.  Kind of.  But in the same way it was just us that morning.

Then Friday afternoon I was reminded of how very selfish I am in general.  One of the kids got sick enough to want to leave all the fun and come home.  So there went our planned date night, and I was resentful.  I wasn't going to be able to do as much work as I'd wanted.  I was going to have to be bothered to parent during my vacation.  I was going to have to deal with another person's opinion about TV or music or food.  I was not going to be able to be entirely selfish.  I wanted my whole break to myself; who knows when I will ever have an opportunity like this again??

Then it struck me--God our Father never takes a break.  He never tires of us being his children, needing him for every little thing.  He doesn't get upset when he has to continue to teach and train us in the same thing he just addressed.  I'm NOT, not, not saying I'm able to do that, or that I don't need a real break for my sanity as well as theirs.  I'm just truly in amazement that He can do that all the time and that he wants to.  And I'm truly thankful that He is a better parent to me than I am to my kids.  I simpley realized he became a bigger God to me.  That's a good thing.


  1. sorry about your weekend...
    Hope it comes again sooner than you expected. And my bday is one day earlier than yours. So happy birthday tomorrow. Hope it is great!!!

  2. my very struggle exactly as i face the one thing in parenting i've asked God NEVER to do.... give me children "close together". why? b/c it will mean really living for my children and not myself. *sigh* but what a fun way to learn selflessness? that's what i keep telling myself as the days tick by :)